A young woman has been in a heterosexual relationship since her late teens. She cannot bear to be who she is. When she one day acknowledges her innermost feelings, it awakens an anxiety so deep that it is impossible to continue.

There are many stories about not being accepted by others, about surroundings that do not understand and try to change young people. In this novel, it is the protagonist herself who goes to extremes to cease being and to become someone else. Pia Edvardsen has written a deeply personal novel, based on her own experiences with conversion therapy.